It Feels More Real Now!
Nov 19th 2007PostmasterIn Treatment & Recurrence
Today, I met with the radiation oncologist to talk about “salvage” radiation therapy (hate that expression) to try to kill the cancer that has recurred in my prostate bed. Odds are that this is where it is, but I don’t know for sure. Either do they. So they’ll just fire the particle accelerator at me and hope they get it all. It’s a lot more refined than that, but the outcome is the same - I’ll only know for sure if my PSA goes down and doesn’t go up. I’ll be starting in a couple of weeks for 33 consecutive days.
I kind of knew this was coming but it all seems so much more real now. I’m stressed to the max just cuz it was such an intense day. The shock of a recurrence is one thing, and I’m feeling good that I’m doing something about it, but now I feel like I’m really living with cancer, or at least starting too. I think it’s going to be a long haul and I don’t know whether time will make it easier or whether it will accumulate. I guess we’ll see. I need to make time to absorb it all and to adapt. I really should be doing things like yoga and meditation and would welcome any other ideas or advice.
Posted by Doug
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Lori on 24 Nov 2007 at 6:23 pm #
Doug, I just want you to know you’re in my thoughts and prayers. When I was diagnosed with lung cancer 5 years ago I finally made myself meditate. I’d been trying to for years but just couldn’t seem to do it right.
After my diagnosis, I started by meditating for just a couple of minutes a day and then worked my way up to 20 minutes. It helped so very much. Now I do gentle yoga twice a week, and that’s very helpful as well.
Whatever works for you - meditation, yoga, prayer, reading, golfing — is what I wish for you. That and love and hope.
Lori